Bored

So the Hubby has been gone for almost 4 months now and it seems like it has been 2 years. He has decided that he is going to stay for a year, so it's going to be until May that he comes home. Happy happy joy joy. On the one hand the money is nice. We have been able to get some bills paid off and others paid down. On the other hand he is missing out on so much. He wasn't here for Father's Day, or The 4th of July, he is now going to miss his birthday, Abi's birthday, Thanksgiving, and he says that he is going to take his R&R for Christmas. With the way the Army goes we will just have to see about that. Nothing is ever as it seems or how it's supposed to be. Think of the worst possible thing that can happen at that moment and that is what the Army is going to throw at you. There is no planning anything b/c everything can change at any given moment. Life is certainly a rollercoaster.

In other news though Abi is talking so much more, and will take the phone away from you if she thinks you are talking to her daddy. He is worried that she isn't going to remember him when he comes home, but she will not forget her daddy. She has her very own picture and she gets to talk to him about once a week, sometimes more. He is out on mission a lot so times vary.

My grandmother found out that she had a tumor on her kidney. It was cancerous, but she had surgery to have the whole kidney removed. Somewhere in the process her belly button got a huge cut on it and the Doc can't seem to get it to heal. Not only that but he has no idea where it came from. He isn't sure if he did it or not. I am not sure what the hell kind of Doc this is, but he hasn't impressed me much. Honestly it isn't my decision where my Grandma goes, but I have been trying to talk her into going somewhere else. It's been almost a month since her surgery and they are just now going to do another surgery to find out what is going on with her belly. This is going to be an all new experience. I am not sure how much longer I can bite my tongue.

I have been doing pretty good healthwise for a change. However might end up having to have surgery on my stomache. The pain is getting absolutely unbearable. Terrible heartburn all of the time making it hard to sleep. I have tried just about everything I can over the counter and even some that were prescribed. Nothing much left to do really. I am waiting on a letter from my insurance to tell me what I can do next. Life is busy busy, but there is no better way to pass the time when your Husband is away than to fill up your time. I hope that it keeps passing by as quickly as it has been!!

Deployment

So the hubby left on the 11th for the first deployment that he has gone on since we have been married. So for two years I have had him pretty much by my side through everything. When we first started talking and got together he was in Iraq, but at that time it was like this new love kinda thing. Everything was still fresh and new, so we got through all of that awkwardness and scaredness while he was gone which made it perfect. Now it is totally different. Every minute seems like an hour and every day seems like a week. I am beginning to wonder if this is every going to end. I have gotten to talk to him quite a few times since he has left. I do enjoy hearing his voice every chance that I get, but it will never take the place of those arms wrapping tight around me as we go to sleep at night. Our daughter Abi walks around asking for daddy. She knows that he isn't here but everytime she hears a car outside she runs to the door, and my heart breaks all over again. I hurt for her b/c I know that no time soon will it really be her daddy walking through the door. Currently we don't know when he is coming home. Originally it was only going to be a 6 month deployment (which sounds shorter than it feels) but I was informed today that their time there may be extended. We of course won't know until he gets a little further along in his deployment. My husband loves his job, and I am extremely proud of him for it. There will always be conflict and people being torn away from their families..I am just glad that he is getting most of it out of the way while the kids are still young enough to forget it. I can't wait until he is finally where he is going to be for a while that way Abi will be able to see him, if only for a minute or two. I know that it would help my feelings and I hope that it will help hers and his as well.